Going to school has been miserable for me every single day for like the last few months, striving through school with people who were once close to me but now so distant. I know I'm at fault and that I deserve it just as much. I didn't just lose one but a whole. Oh well, #hatesmyself. But I'm glad because at the end of a day everyday, I got somewhere to go to. Where I fit in so perfectly and spending time with that special person makes me feel that I might just have some worth in me. I didn't have to pretend, pretend that I'm oblivious to the surroundings and that I'm just a loner. (sigh)
These pictures depict the best times of my life and as much as I try to ignore it because it always remind of what I can never get back to. But I'm not going to do that anymore because those are beautiful memories that I want to captivate in pictures and videos and show it to my grandchildren. Hell, I would definitely want to do that.
Just makes me sad that all I have to my poly life would just be memories and hardly anybody would ever contact me. I hate myself for all this mistakes.
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