R/ships are ships and ships sink

I'm insecured and I hate this. Do you really want to or is it an obligation? Don't do it because you feel a need to, do it because you want to. Sometime I hear too many, 'I just want you to be happy' that I'm too scared to believe it again. I waited for something, I don't want that to be a habit. I know I did wrong but punishment comes with warning too.

Yes, I'm so complicated but truth is all i want to hear is, 'Sorry, I didn't know you were waiting. Give me a chance so I can make you happy. I won't be tired, I promise.' instead of succumbing to whatever I said. I'm so vulnerable nowadays and letting my guard down because I thought I have you to cover me up, to act as a comfort to me. I thought that even if the whole world turn its back on me, I thought that... At least I still have you.