XieJieYing

To XJY.

Dear xjy, you had been my pillar of support when I nearly died and commited social suicide, you were one of the few people who stood by me and actually comforted and cared for me telling me I did nothing wrong and I wasn't much of at fault. Thank you for embracing me because i know i was never well liked by anybody back in the past even in tzuchi, hahaha i had a screwed up social life. People you didn't know were also talking bad about me and also.. people we knows or even people who socialises around me. To be honest, you were the very few people who I thought will comfort me you know but i'm glad you did. (: You helped me so much more.

You got me to admit and be true to myself. We met at taiwan camp and welllllllllll I know I wasn't well liked and now, I still don't know. I'm sorry I drift away from you because to me, you're differentiate perfectly well. Discipline, good means good, bad means bad. You're so decisive, always making decisions that you never regret unlike me. I cut myself away from alot of people and you knew why and I'm sorry I didn't ask you out. I'm scared of your opinions sometimes. Especially because I wasn't brave enough to do what you can do and I'm scared you will judge me.

But you were the few people who came back to help me and picked me up. Picked all my little pieces. Regardless if you still hate me now with the other bunch or... I don't know? Lol, you were one of the good friends I had in life. Really. I'm a terrible friend really. Whenever my status was about some emo shit or sucidal stuffs, you text or msn me and sometimes I don't even reply because I forgot. Okay, if given a chance, ill be a better person.

If you read this, I'm sorry I cant even be a decent friend to go to your farewell party. I'm sorry I had not been there and always MIA all the time. I love you dear friend. I'll miss you for that 6 months - 1 year.