Don't even bother

Coming back here to check up on me to see if what you had done had upset me. Or how I feel about it or just anything. I know you had a long day, I know I made it worse. But you know my judgement might not be always right but try to remember what I had faith and belief in. I know things seems unfathomable to you and I'm not begging you to understand why I believed or how I did. I'm just hoping you trust and have faith in me... And if it was for a worse cause, just be there to catch me when I fall okay?

I know you aren't bastards that slammed their girlfriends to the wall, physically abuse them or anything like that. I couldn't complain because you're a lot more than I got and 'nice' is too much of an understatement. We never really have such a big fight that we broke up, never really yell at each other, we don't ignore each other and we try to talk things out most of the time. We talk on the phone almost everyday and I smiled every night to sleep knowing tomorrow morning, I'll be greeted with your 'Good morning baby. (:' messages. I got more than enough reasons to try to keep you here, with me. Maybe I probably saved someone life unknowingly (president's son, who knows?) and got such a enormous-gantic karma and I got you. (:

Sigh, I'm supposed to be whining and complaining about you but I ended up, still not believing my good fortune and tremendously grateful for what you had done and did for me. That message hurt, that phone call didn't make it any better. But for now, I'm not going to demand comfort and assurance like how I always do. I know I'm so emotional and if you were to tell me that you're irritated by it, don't worry. You're not the first. I know I am sometimes always demanding for what more than you can give but it's okay, you don't deserve this shit.

For now, goodnight if you're still on Facebook playing world cafe and came along here. Or that if you're so tired, I hope you come here tomorrow and everything between us would be okay. Because... I kind of miss you and well, today is just one of the days I want to rant, joke and laugh with you while imagining you in your super cheeky laughter with your perverse yet sparkling eyes.

Luv you, always do.