Amor Vincit Omnia

I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling so much. I'm engulfed with apprehension of the unknown till today. My past vulnerability was at its best and you used it to your advantage, you know I'll do anything for you. You know I even crossed the toe out of line for you way too many times. You knew.

But you treated me like dirt. You treated me like I wasn't good enough and till today I struggle to convince myself in front of the mirror, telling that reflection that I'm good enough. You made me broken. You made me scared, ashamed of myself. And whatever was left of me got treaded, ransacked and jaded continuously. I guess you could say I didn't get my heart broken this time because how is it any possible for your heart to be broken when it was never a whole to start with?

Then you, you and you have to keep playing me on. Have to make me push my limits beyond boundaries and to the brink of exhaustion and nervous breakdown. But I keep believing in this quote, Amor Vincit Omnia. I guess till today, I probably be convincing myself that it exists and maybe someday it is going to happen to me. 


God why am I so fricking naive?

Time to move on

I know I'm awesome. OKAYYYY HAHAHA.

Before anybody else jumped into conclusion, me and Eugene are just good friends. Couldn't have a better time talking to anybody else. It is awesome knowing that he is always forever on at whatsapp and always entertaining me. I'm just glad that despite how my life has turned out, I still get to meet awesome people. I think that is what make me having my faith in humanity restored again. Note the 9gag pun. (Hehe)

I know you couldn't probably tell much from the SS I take since i biasedly put those that made me looked  good. Hahaha but please ah people dont't jump into conclusion.

The amount of shoes my family has is frightening knowing that there are only 5 pairs of legs at home. But to surprise you guys more, one shelf of shoes belong to my mum's. True story.

My mother probably have the same shoes in different colours and my mum is just mad  about shoes. Recently she is so into birkenstock and recently added a few to her collection. Also, couldn't missed a chance to smack down evidence of my narcissm on this blog

My default faces for this few weeks. Reports are piling up and for the first time ever, I had so much trouble with them. Writing was never a problem with me till I  met Wind Energy System, it is a report I don't even know I was rambling on and just.. literally crapped. I put in so much effort and usually by then I know where I stand or what kind of grade I could get, but this is just the kind of report that I am clueless of what I'm going to receive back.

Mundane days like this are slaughtering whatever is left of my remaining optimistism (if there is such a word) Still few more weeks till the end of the tertiary education, looking back I have so much regrets and mostly is because I lost so much people I love. I hate that things would never be well again and people whom I was once so close are just now... people doing projects with me. Sucks but I guess that's life.

I learned so much this few weeks and I hope that all the bad things that had happened to me had at least taught me important lessons too. I missed my old life but I guess it is time to move on. :>

Guess

Have a quick guess and guess where had I been during in the midst of busy Chinese New Year?

Answer: Heaven.

Busy

Pictures showed comfort food that has been accompanying me for this stressful and prolly... most depressing period of my life. But none of my pessimistic rants today of course. A typical breakfast with the Khoo family which usually consist Daddy and the irritating brother who hacked into my facebook and proclaimed himself as the best brother of all times.

Oh yeah, I'm a fan of photography. Forever. Got to love instagram, hands down best app ever.

I should seriously get an award for controlling the shit around me and actually maneuvering around everything and still remain focused. One should never be miserable over things that has happened and keep his/her head facing the future. I guess. Or that was what I have been applying to my life. Schoolwork has been piling up and right now I have 6 reports on my hand this week (SAY WHAT) and I'm going to complete them after this blog posts. Like now.

Planner

Been busy being a busy girl. :/

Surprise

2012 has been a surprise year. Yesterday but who knows, rico came to my doorstep at 3am to have a heart to heart talk. It was.. just surprise and oddly nice. I mean, how freaking often can you do that with an ex boyfriend who is now a really good friend? I'm glad that we had that long long long talk even if it did make me cranky the next few hours for school.  :>

January has been full of surprises but relatively good to me. Just one more semester exams to go and fyp report done, i'll be bidding my tertiary education in Singapore Polytechnic farewell. What does life holds after that? I don't know to be honest but I'm going to go with the flow and hope for the best.

Genting

Can you spot the rainbow? :>

(taken by iPhone)

25th December was absolutely one of the most beautiful days of my life. :>

Thank you for giving me the best Xmas present, 2011.